Test of Determination
Krishna wants to test your determination, how much faith you have. Sometimes there is a risk of life in devotional service. Can you take risk? You can take risk only if you have faith that Krishna will protect me.
Advancement
According to one’s faith, one makes advancement in devotional life.
Action Speaks
Since so many lifetimes, you have done so many sins. Why do you expect immediate achievement of perfection? It depends on previous piety. Do you feel deity as God? Is He reciprocating to your prayers? It is not mechanical. Are you feeling change of consciousness? You have read you are not this body, you are soul. How much conviction you have? Your action will tell. Action speaks louder than words.
Realizing Vrindavan
Dust of Vrindavana is also transcendental. This is not ordinary dust. Krishna is still tending His cows here. One should be fortunate enough to see Him. One should be free from kama, krodha, lobha, moha, mada and matsarya.
Bhoga
Staying in dhama will be bhoga if you don’t serve.
Purchasing Ticket
One cannot come to Vrindavan by purchasing a ticket from any part of the world. You can’t realize Vrindavan. Who realizes Vrindavan? Our acharyas say, “vishaya chadiya kabe shuddha habe mana….” When our mind will be purified, when we‘ll give up sense gratification of materialistic life.” How can we give up? By the mercy of Lord Nityananda.
Sense Gratification
If you think you will get nice house, so many facilities, then this is not Vrindavan. Where there is sense gratification, there is no Vrindavan. What Krishna gives, you be happy with that, with bare necessities. Then Radharani will allow you to stay here. Otherwise get lost! Live very simple. Then you can stay. Don’t do aparadha to any living entity.
Worshipable
Every particle of dust of Vrindavan is worshipable. Every tree of Vrindavan is worshipable, and every devotee of Vrindavan is worshipable.
Not Mechanical
You can check whether your life is changing or not? It is not like doing sadhanamechanically. See! Has your life changed? Is your life becoming peaceful & clean? Have you begot some feelings and devotion for Guru? It is like hunger. If someone is not hungry, then giving him nice things will also be useless. And if one is very hungry, then whatever you give, that will appear delicious to him.”
Anarthas
By increasing your service towards Guru & Gauranga, anarthas will go away, by their blessings.”