Total absorption in hearing Sankirtana Music develops faith in Lord Krishna.
When we face difficulties and still remain faithful to Krishna and the spiritual master, we access the infinite mercy of their hearts.
Only to those great souls who have implicit faith in both the Lord and the spiritual master are all the imports of the Vedic knowledge automatically revealed.
Your enthusiasm to serve vaishnava should increase.. Then your faith becomes stronger in remembering Krishna.
A devotee knows that even at his death Krishna will protect him. The real test of our devotion will be at that time.