Unfortunately we do not research our heart for how much affection we have for a person, till he disappears.
Keep your mind under captivity of remembering Lord Krishna.
The Kingdom of Godhead is not a myth but it is situated far beyond the boundary of the material cosmos and one can know it by the process of devotional service only.
When a pure devotee or spiritual master speak, what he says should be accepted as having been directly spoken by the Supreme Personality of Godhead in the Parampara System. — Sri Caitanya Caritamrita, Antya Lila, 05.71.