Test of Determination
Krishna wants to test your determination, how much faith you have. Sometimes there is a risk of life in devotional service. Can you take risk? You can take risk only if you have faith that Krishna will protect me.
Advancement
According to one’s faith, one makes advancement in devotional life.
Action Speaks
Since so many lifetimes, you have done so many sins. Why do you expect immediate achievement of perfection? It depends on previous piety. Do you feel deity as God? Is He reciprocating to your prayers? It is not mechanical. Are you feeling change of consciousness? You have read you are not this body, you are soul. How much conviction you have? Your action will tell. Action speaks louder than words.
Realizing Vrindavan
Dust of Vrindavana is also transcendental. This is not ordinary dust. Krishna is still tending His cows here. One should be fortunate enough to see Him. One should be free from kama, krodha, lobha, moha, mada and matsarya.