One should try to purchase a ticket to go back home, back to Godhead. The price of such a ticket is one’s intense desire for it, which is not easily awakened, even if one continually performs pious activities for thousands of lives. All mundane relationships are sure to be broken in the course of time but once one establishes a relationship with the Supreme Personality of Godhead in a particular rasa, it is never to be broken, even after the annihilation of the material world. — Sri Caitanya Caritamrita, Adi Lila, Chapter 01, Text 56.
Without being self-controlled, without being disciplined and without being fully obedient, no one can become successful in following the instruction of the spiritual master and without doing so, no one is able to go back to Godhead. — Srimad Bhagavatam, 01.05.24.
To travel in another country, you need visa permission, similarly to go back to Godhead you need permission & mercy from his pure devotee.
Even at the last moment of your life, if you remember Lord Krishna… You can go back to Godhead.
Don't think that just you take initiation and spiritual master will take you back to Godhead. You have to become serious otherwise opportunity of going back to Godhead will be lost.
Srila Prabhupada has given us the perfect process. Now mold yourself according to that and I assure you that you will go back to Godhead.