Your enthusiasm to serve vaishnava should increase.. Then your faith becomes stronger in remembering Krishna.
Hard earned money is kept in fixed deposit in the Banks and we are used to Credit Cards. Similarly deposit your faith in fixed deposit of the Lord, and chant every day.
When we face difficulties and still remain faithful to Krishna and the spiritual master, we access the infinite mercy of their hearts.
Two things are very important – a very mature and honest understanding of the dangers and sufferings of material existence and faith that the holy name of God has descended to give us supreme shelter.
Only to those great souls who have implicit faith in both the Lord and the spiritual master are all the imports of the Vedic knowledge automatically revealed.