Grudge
Grudge for some one means you drink poison and expect the other person to die.
Grudge for some one means you drink poison and expect the other person to die.
Struggle with maya is like "A football match". You may be winning by 20-0 till the end wistle blows but at the last moment Maya becomes heavy and match ends with 20-21. You may be loosing by 0-20 till the end wistle blows but at the last moment Krishna's infallible mercy becomes heavy and the match ends with 21-20.
If you want to develop a particular quality, then serve the devotee who has that quality.